The Truth Is....

Truth is... I'm not always a great wife. I let my house get dirty and I don't fix supper every night.

Truth is... I'm not always the best mother. I spend way too much time on the internet instead of spending more time with my kids.

Truth is... I'm not always the greatest friend. I find that I keep to myself rather than reaching out.

Truth is... I'm not always the best student. I put things off till the last minute.

Truth is... Nobody is perfect.

Truth is... That is a fact I really need to learn to accept.

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What Makes A Good Blog??

I think about this often. I mean what really makes a good blog?? Is it how many times you post a day/week? Is it how many followers you have or how many comments you get? Or is it the content of your posts and truly being yourself?

I would probably go with the last one. I love finding new blogs to read and I love ones that are down to earth and really honest! You can see the bloggers true self and their blog is not filled with reviews of everything under the sun. Yes, I understand some reviews are okay but I don't like reading about one every other post. That's just me. I like to read about other moms like me and know that I am not crazy and this stuff really happens to other people.

I have been blogging for a couple years now and while this blog is new it is not my first. My other blog was followed by many people that I face every day in my small town and by family. While that is all okay, it did not give me the freedom to truly express myself and say what I wanted. I feel I have more freedom to write freely without being judged by those around me. That may sound silly but it works for me.

I'm not going to lie - I had a rough summer and not one that I ever want to repeat. It was life changing for me on many different levels. There were so many times when I wanted to express the way I felt but did not want those around me gossiping about my life. Yes, I understand that it is a blog and it is public but at least I am a little more anonymous with this one.

I have struggled with depression and anxiety and the fact that I truly do not have any close girlfriends to talk to about stuff when I just want to vent or simply share my life and compare the craziness. I have never been good at making friends so I just keep to myself and my family most of the time. That doesn't mean I don't want to make friends! I spend my days at home with my 2 year old twins while my other 3 children are at school. My husband is gone 3 nights a week until May and the only contact I have with the adult world is through my blog an Twitter.

Is my blog a good blog? Well, it's okay. Not the best but I'm working on it. I still feel myself holding back from time to time but I'm getting there. I have opinions, I have feelings and I have a voice. I just need to learn how to use it.

I am a major blog stalker!! I love reading and finding new blogs and other moms like me. So, if you have a blog that isn't filled with nothing but reviews(a few are okay) please link them below! I just may become your newest follower! :) I will add my link first. So be sure and follow me as well!

SOCS: I Really Need Some Sleep

If you have been reading my blog this week, you have seen that this has been a week from hell. I definitely do not want another one like this any time soon!

Each day it seemed to be something new. Each day something happened to drag me a little further down. By the end of the week I felt like just giving up. Saturday was better and was pretty much uneventful. Yet, when I went to bed last night I found myself upset and crying myself to sleep. I have no clue as to why. Like I said it was a pretty good day. The only thing I can figure is the whole week just caught up to me.

I read into things way too much. Every action the hubby does I try to translate into what he really meant and usually I end up thinking the worse and worrying and then I end up upset. I'm pretty sure that is what happened last night when I went to bed. It was either that or my lack of sleep was finally catching up to me. Now that the hubby is gone 3 nights a week for his job training, I find that I cannot sleep. I end up staying up late and getting up way too early. I then find myself unbelievably tired during the day and get absolutely nothing done. I need to learn to deal with this. Deal with him being gone 3 nights a week. I mean I have until May to deal with this and I cannot continue like this.

And let me tell you what really gets under my skin. I have fought with the twins all week with naps. My husband puts them down for a nap on Saturday and only has to go back in once before they fall asleep. Today he lays them down and never has to go back in. They fall straight to sleep. So what am I doing wrong. I try to do exactly as he does and yet I fail every time. I just don't get it!

There was my Stream of Consciousness Sunday. Hope you enjoyed. Have a great Sunday!









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I Feel Defeated....

Have you ever just had one of those days or in my case one of those weeks? I guess yesterday was my breaking point.

Nothing major happened for once all week. It was just the fact that after 5 days in a row of fighting with the twins to take a nap, I felt like I couldn't control them. I felt like they were walking all over top of me. I know I went in their room a good 10-15 times and numerous spankings before i finally got them to stay in their beds. My hubby can go in there once and they listen. I just don't get it. I do the exact same thing he does, it just doesn't work for me! So, I was feeling like I couldn't control them and an awful parent because of it.

Before I attempted to lay the twins down, I got a phone call that one of my dogs was in doggie jail! So, I guess something major did happen. Everything is just a blur at this point. I didn't even know she (Zoey) had gone outside. My other dog (Wyott) was laying on the couch quietly and I assumed that Zoey was laying somewhere too. I was wrong. So that was just one more failure to add to the pile for the week.

My house is completely out of control. It is messy and I have let it get so far behind this week that it will take me forever to get it back in order.

It's just been a bad week and I am really hoping that it turns around today. I definitely don't want another week like this one!

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Friday Is Finally Here!

Thank goodness Friday has arrived. It has been one hectic week and I am so ready for it to be over.

I spent most of my day making Princess E a bunny doll. My grandmother use to make them all the time. When she passed away last year, I searched her house over looking for one of them. I only found one. Princess E found that one bunny doll in my room and fell in love with it. Now since she is only two, I decided I didn't really want her to have it yet. So, I decided to get some colorful fabric and make her one of her own.

We went on Wednesday to JoAnn's Fabrics to get the material. I could live in that store. All that material! I could spend hours in there and a small fortune. I never could understand why my grandmother had so much material and now I understand. Going to JoAnn's is like the best treat ever! It was nice to be able to go and just look around after the crappy week I've been having.

So, today I started  on making her bunny. I found a pattern online that was free and it turned out to be a pattern that did not have very good direction. I muddled through and the finish product was the cutest bunny ever! If I decide to make more I definitely will be finding another pattern!

Princess E fell in love with the bunny right away. She has carried it everywhere this evening!

Being able to sew and figure things out gives me such gratification. My late Grandmother taught me quite a few things and it makes me feel proud when I can actually use these skills. She was such an awesome woman and I could write a book on her. She was so crafty and when I am able to accomplish these things it makes me feel great! I always think, Maybe I am like her more than I realize.

I hope everyone has a GREAT Weekend. Now lets get this Friday started!

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I'm One Lucky Chic

You've heard that saying that goes something like - I wouldn't have any luck at all if I didn't have bad luck. Well that is how I feel this week.

We started off no nap for the twins on Monday. This made for a really long evening and one that I was ready to end.

On Tuesday my phone kicked the bucket and I head to go get a new one. Now I did get to get an iPhone but the twins once again did not get a nap! So number 2 really long evening.

On Wednesday my power steering went out in my van. I found out it was gone when I went to take the kids to school. That was not fun trying to maneuver the van around corners. I also had to go out of town and so we are up to number 3 day of naps. This made for the 3rd very long evening.

Now we are up to Thursday. While nothing has happened yet, I am still not out of the woods yet. I just woke up so I say give that luck a chance!

And what makes this all even worse is that my hubby is not here to make things better or the fact that I truly do not have any girl friends! I really need to find some online ones so I can vent or just share the day with!

I hope everyone else's week has gone so much better!

Is It Friday Yet??

It makes for a really long week when you have grouchy kids! And trust me it has been a really long week thus far! I am pretty sure the terrible two's have invaded my house! I have seen meltdowns, broken up fights and screaming for not getting their way. Yes, all of that was about the twins. The last two evenings I have spent counting down the time until they can go to bed.

And of course this is the time that my husband finally gets a decent job! I keeping telling everyone how it is hard with my hubby not being home but I totally forgot about what I am going through by dealing with all of this myself. It is exhausting and a lot of days it makes me want to go crawl in a corner and hide.

Did I mention my house is a disaster from my two little terrors? Yes, it is. Do I care? No. At this point I am just looking forward to getting through each day.

Unaccounted For

We are in week two of my husbands training and I miss him more than ever! I am so accustomed to him being here, helping with the kids and being my support.

I know it could be a lot worse. People in the military are gone for longer periods of time and don't get to come home weekly or see their family. At least he is able to come on Wednesdays and the weekends. I am thankful for that.

But knowing it could be a lot worse still doesn't seem to make it any better. We have until May before this all ends! That seems like a life time away!

It is good that the kids keep me busy or else I think I would go nuts. And when I say busy I do mean busy! Thankfully soccer is over until next season. We still have a few more football games left and then basketball will be starting and don't forget to throw 4-H into the mix of all the sports. It never ends. I am thinking I need a taxi sign to go on the roof of my van.

The twins are also doing their fair share of keeping me busy. For the last week there have been no naps which is not a good thing. Princess E is the instigator. Prince E would go to sleep no problem but she feels the need to keep him up. So, by the time evening rolls around they are major grouches!! There is never ending stream of crying and fighting between them and it only makes me count down the hours until it is time for them to go to bed.

I just try to do the best I can and not let me emotions take over. I know in the long run this is going to be better for our family but it is the long road to have to travel to get there. I just miss my husband and will be glad when he is back home with us.

Smiling is Good For The Soul

Smiling makes us feel younger. It fills us full of joy. So, what makes me smile?

- my children. Granted they drive me over the edge sometimes but my life would not be complete without them. It puts a smile on my face to see them smile or learn something new. They are God's greatest gift.

-my husband. He always makes me smile. He makes our kids smile. He is an awesome father and an outstanding husband. He is going through 7 months of "boot camp" for his new firefighting job for our family. He is gone a lot because of this. It makes me smile when he finally comes walking through the door.

-fall. I love this time of year. It's just starting to get cold. The leaves are gorgeous on the mountains that surround me. I can finally pull my sweatshirts back out. All of this puts a smile on my face.

-books. I love to read when I have the time. There is nothing better than curling up with a good book on a cool fall evening. This puts a smile on my face.

-family. They support us. They are the people we turn to when we need picking up. They have to like us because we are family. :) we can be ourselves without fear of being judged. Family. It makes me smile.

This post was inspired by the prompt: 5 things that make you smile

What makes you smile?

You Must Be So Organized

I hear that little phrase all the time!

I always shake my head yes and agree. Its so much easier to agree than to go into detail of how I am not organized!

Should I be more organized? Yes! I really wish I was because it would make my life so much easier! I feel like there is a disaster in every corner of my house. There are days when I just want to start tossing everything and start over fresh. There are days when I do just that!

I always wonder why people think the more kids you have the more organized you must be. I guess the truth is that IS the way it should be. I have always felt with each child that entered our life - I became less organized. I had less time to do things and the clutter started to build!

The truth is I hate for people to come to my house because it is embarrassing sometimes how much two little people can destroy a room in 5 minutes or less. I often wonder what the point of picking up is because Prince E and Pricess E are just going to rip it back out.

If I've said it once I've said it a hundred times - twins are a completely breed. They work together and gang up on me. There are days I want to crawl under a rock and just hide. There are destruction and you can never keep your eye on both of them at the same time! Impossible!

Maybe I need to apply for one of those organization shows on TLC. I have a feeling they would run the other way though so if they stepped through our front door!

For those of you who have twins - do you find that they are more destructive and it makes it hard to keep up with them? My experience has been yes! What has your experience been?

Sleep?!?

Yeah, I'm not so sure I know what sleep is. At least not this weekend.

Princess E and Prince E have decided that it is best to get up at 6AM over the weekend. I'm not even sure why! I mean its not like it is light out at that time, but every morning I have heard the pitter-patter of feet running across my living room floor - that would be Prince E. Princess E on the other hand tries to be as quiet as possible so she can get into everything she can find. Thank goodness her brother is loud or who knows what I would wake up to!

As of this weekend we are officially done with soccer till next season!! Little B had his final game on Saturday and their team came in second place. At least I have one sport down. Now we only have to deal with Big C and football. Of course this will be only a few weeks because soon basketball will be starting and I will be counting down the days till the end of the season once again. I don't dislike sports - it just makes my life more hectic. As if it could get any worse.

Today (Sunday) we had a little photo shoot over at a friends farm. I am not real happy with it but it is pretty near impossible to get 5 kids to sit still and look at the camera all at the same time. So after a few shots I just gave up and figured I would make due with what we had! The scenery in the background of the pictures is just beautiful. This time of year is gorgeous around here. The leaves are so colorful! I will be giving you a sneak peek of those pictures tomorrow!

Now onto a relaxing Sunday evening! (I hope) I hope everyone has a great Sunday!

Who I Am

Now that I have told you why I started this blog, let me tell you who I am.

First of all let me say I will not be using our real names on here so I will use the names below.

Okay, my name is Mama Woo and I am the wife to Papa Woo and the mother to our 5 children. Big C is our oldest and he is 12 currently. We also have a 10 year old (Little B), a 5 year old (Little J) and a set of boy/girl twins that are 2 years old (Prince E and Princess E). There is not a dull moment around here.

I am a stay at home mom for now. Papa Woo is a paid firefighter/EMT. He just got a job with a different company and is currently MIA quite a bit due to his training.

Papa Woo and I met on August 19, 2005. We got married on January 11, 2006. On August 18, 2006 we had our first son together. (Our oldest two sons (Big C and Little B) are from my previous marriage.) In July of 2008 we had a miscarriage at 17 weeks pregnant. It was a very hard thing to deal with. After the miscarriage we had a hard time getting pregnant again and I was give a very low dose of Clomid. I became pregnant at the beginning of 2009 and on March 12, 2009 we found out we were having twins. On September 15, 2009 we had boy/girl twins!

Since the twins everything has been a blur. Twins are a whole different breed and you never have a dull moment with them!

This brings us up to now! I am currently going to college for Web Development/Design at an online school. We have a crazy life and there is never a time when something isn't going on! I hope you enjoy reading about us!

This Isn't My First Rodeo

Say what? Yeah, you heard me right. This is my first post but not my first blog.

I have another blog that I have had for a few years now BUT since I used my real name and all my family and people from my small little town follow it - it makes it hard to write freely.

I want to be able to express my thoughts and opinions without fear of what the people I see every day think.

I feel like my other blog is so held back and conservative compared to what it could be. It makes it really hard to write when you have to watch what you say! I want to rant quite a bit or just give my own opinion but I hold it back because it is or does affect someone who reads my blog that I have to actually see every day.

So I'm turning over a new leaf and starting from scratch again! I know it will take time to build my fan base back up but at least I will be able to express myself! Watch out world!

Has anyone else experienced this? Do your friends and family follow your blog?